Sunday, October 31, 2004
living in a nightmare
a never-ending sleep

happy halloween everybody! :D
rahhs. =/
so bored. boring day todae. didnt do much. hahas.
went to ntuc in the morn. hahas. then went to mcs in the near j8 one to check out the job thingie with my mum. they said must be at LEAST 14 years and above. wth. so im too young! ): sadness laas. hurr. but i didnt check out places YET. but might be all the same. bahhs.
then went home. packed quite a few stuff into boxes. hahas. then didnt do much the whole afternoon. haha.
so boring. sighs.
so i guess now its comfimed that im going la. but who cares anywae. no one will care if i die wad. whatever.
i have this feeling deep inside of me.. but.. i dunt wanna sae it.. forget it. haiz.
gonna end here. nite.

Saturday, October 30, 2004
id give it all up
for just one more day with you

sigh. =/
i think that i might be gonna get a job in the hols! whaha. my mum said can! work in mcs. lols. but i think that im too young? wth. but i can go and try! i wanna. make moneyy! can buy some stuff that i want and also give some money to my parents. hee.
sighhs. will be like damn free for 2 months since theres no more sch. lols. and i think that its alr comfirmed that im going to aussie. )): sighs. in some ways there can be GOOD and BAD. haiz.
for now i think that it might be good? cos i have this feeling la.. that everyone hates me and all. but i cannt stop them right. so like wth. nothing lasts forever. and everything will always come and go. frens come and go. and i hate that. but im accepting the fact. rahhs.
wokay. didnt do much todae. hahas. wke up at 11. hahas. was damn tired laas. then met my mum at 2 in novena. after that went to cath class. hahas. then we had the bible quiz thing. ur grp members were charmaine, ed, laura and alexis. whahas. our grp name was called THE LAMERS. named by me. whah. :D we gt 11 points la. whee! the damn boys were smarter then the girls. probably cos they are alter boys? hmm. maybe. haha. whatever! we actually had a party but the damn boys ate everything. but all the gilrs went for mass. whaha!
then went for mass. whaha. righht. my dad and sis is watching this show. damn funnie. haha.
damn bored. haha. bahhs. i wanna make money! haha. then i can buy things that i want babbeh! woot. haha.
ok. im abit siao alr. whatever. lols.
mum is gna to cancel my tui alr! woot. and i dunt have tui tml. yayness. i wonder what im gna do tml. hahas. damn boring my hols. hurr!!
blog tml. nite!

Friday, October 29, 2004
imposible is nothing

last day of sch todae. )): sadness. haiz.
might nt be going to sch nxt yr. cos i might be going to aussie. ): sighhs. gna miss everything laas. my frens esp. haiz. ): oh wells.
woke up late today! woke up like 7?! hahas. cos i slept in my parents room. then i overslept. hahas. then i didnt wanna go to sch. but my dad just said to go cos last day of sch and gna get report bk. so i just went laas. hahas. then i brought the cam to sch too! was damn scared that teacher wuld confiscate it so i put it in a lunchbox. hahas. pathetic. lols.
then there was no prefects. hahas. xiu came ltr then me!! hahas.
then we didnt do much laas. read lorna's lime mag. hahas. then slacked ard. talked and took pics!
after that we had to go to the d&t lab to collect our workpieces! whahas. mine sucks i tell u! lols.
then we had to go for some talk thingie that ms tan gave. hahas. had this video on this guy called john thois or smth like that. hes a aussie. and i didnt understand what he was saying cos he was talking so darn fast and the sound quailty sucked. hahas.
then after the video ms tan had a slide show on the talk. whaha. was damn good la. saying abt making dreams into goals and all! whahas. (:
then we went for recess. didnt eat cos we had so little time to eat. so went up to class. haha.
then once recess was over ms neo came... we had to do like 3 surveys?! hahas. then we had the book list and some forms thing. hahas.
then at 12.50 then we got back our report books! (:
im happie with my results but i noe that i can do btr. ha. i wanna do btr!! bahhs. failed math, chi and history. my parents didnt scold me laass. they said ok and nt bad. hahas.
i improved la! :D hee.
i wanna pass maths and chi! ahh sigh.
i think that im reallie going la. haiz... oh wells.
everyone is going to 2/5 nxt year! even amanda the damn idiot who is a damn PART-TIME STUDENT. that asshole passed chi and she doesnt even freaking come. like wth?! nisha also.. but she gt health prob. but still. ahh wells.
watched the result show for sg idol just nw. christopher is out! sadness la. ahh wells. i wonder who will get out next. hahas.
gna end here. nite everybody.

Thursday, October 28, 2004
let it burn

school outing todae!!! :D was funn! hahas.
went to go watch cellular (((: that show rocks k! love it babbeh! i wanna go watch again! whahas.
we were soppose to go and watch at tp first but dono what happened so in the end we ended up watching it at amk. hahas. but wokay la! lols.
the story is abt this kidnapping. then abt handphone. hahas! damn nice! then also gt bad words. plentyy! whahas. the most is shit. bullshit. holy shit. shit.. hahas. and also gt bitch.. bastard. and the last part there was this line. "its a day spa u fuck" whahas. love that show man! vulgar! ((:
i wanna go watch agn! hurr! i wanna go watch shark tale and princess diarys 2 also! whahas. :D
tml is the last day of sch. ))))): -cries. and we are gna get back our REPORT BOOKS. and there is gna be CLASS SPRING CLEANING. HURR!!! =/
damn scared abt report books although i know that i passed overall. hahas. but my parents know all my marks alr la. i told them! whaha.
but i didnt tell my mum that i gt 33 for hist. fuck. bullshit! lols. nvm laas. tml let them see. haha. sighhs.
i think that tml MAYBE is the last day for me to be in the sch. )): cos i think that i might be going to aussie alr. ))): sighs. -cries. im gna miss lots peeps! esp dezi and xiu. and of course sara, nic and gina. haiz. and i'll miss my other frens too! like the TAMIL grp.. sobana.. visha my bamboo! :D then the NERDS. megala; esther?; natasha; evelyn; sajivani [pufferfish].. not miss as in the missmiss like i miss xiu and they all la. as in... the make fun kind! whahas. im so mean! :D
still... haiz. =/ dezi is sad toos. shes worried that she might go to tech and have to tranfer. but i hope that ms neo might just give her a chance la. haiz!
bah. blog tml. nite. (:

dezi ;
cheer up ok?
dunt worry too much. =/
im sad for u also k. haiz.
dunt worry too much. and dunt fucking cut yrself la asshole.
hurr. i'll be praying for u. haiz.
dezi i will be there whenever u need me ok? i love you lots. (:

Wednesday, October 27, 2004
welcome to my life

had game festival todae.
was wokay la. didnt play any of the game except for fishball. hahas. that game is funn! play witht eh fishball, chicken wing, rugby ball and basketball. hahas. damn fun! and our team won! cos maria can catch properly. lols! good! :D
then after the game was slacking ard with xiu, regina, dezi and steph. steph was sorta extra la! hahas. but whatever. lols.
then we also had the food fair thingie. bought milo and papadum to eat. lols. damn nice la! hahas.
then walked ard.. haha. watched the other games also! then the human monopoly they throw the coffee thingie. so disgusting! then all the pple who had it wanted to hug me. wth. so disgusting. then i gt angry and shouted at them. whaha. :D
then after all the games had to go to the hall. haha. blue hse won overall! (: haha. then we had to like shout so muchh. so just shout lor. haha.
then go back to class. we gt back our ART work. i passed! :D yayness. i passed. whaha. then ms neo also told us todae who failed the overall. and i passed was damn relieved la. but some pple failed la. bahs. then i told my parents that i passed. then my dad said. u btr pass! haha. my goshhs.
but this time i failed math, chi and history! dammit la. history was the lowest this time. hahas. sad case. but it was sorta diff la. hurr. then math missed by abit. chinese also missed slighty. so wasted lor! wtf. haiz. :( ohh well. gna try harder next year! bahs. but might be going to aussie? :(((((( -cries. i dunt wanna go k! but... i dono. gna miss my frens alot. too much. haiz. =/
wokay la. hahas.
tml gna watch cellular! class outing. actually its the whole of sec 1s. hahas. whee! gna be fun tml! cannt wait. whaha. :D
BAHHS. tml i gt tui. hurr. tui teacher probably wants to see my chi paper! whahaha. let her see lor. haiz. i did my best aniwae. hahas.
fri is the last day of sch! )): damn sad. and we are gna gte back our report books. BAH. but at least i passed. HURR.
think that i will end here. nite peeps! :D

Tuesday, October 26, 2004
don't tell me

super tired. =/
netball carnival today at kallang netball center. hahas. woke up like 5 am? and then was soppose to meet xiu at amk station at 6.40. but the jurong east lines only start at 6.06.. so i took bus 88 to there. luckily i was with my dad! or else i wuld of have gotten lost. whaha.
then we changed the plans. i waited for xiu until like 6.30+ and then her dad and her came. hahas. then we went to fetch gina at her hse. lols. then we went there.
then had all the games and stuff. then maria and setia were teaching us the cheerleading thingie. lols. after all the games finished we had the cheerleading thingie. haha. ours was damn screwed laas. cos we didnt practice enough. but nvm! next time try harder! ((: hahas.
then there was rainn. hahas. i was taking pics. lols.
then once it was finished we culd go alr. then dezi, regina, xiu and me went to kfc to eat. haha! but dezi had to go first cos her dad came alr. hahas.
after that we took the bus to kallang mrt. then we took the mrt to changi! haha. then we explored the place ard. hahas. damn lame la. but it was kinof fun laas.
im tired. =/ freaking tired. lols.
tmls theres the game festival thingie. hur! ahh wells.
anyways. to the 1/5 girls! those who wants the pics. go HERE to get the pics that u want or whatever. :D hahas.
OKAY. think that i will end here now. hahas. gonna eat dinner soon. BYE.

Monday, October 25, 2004
everything means nothing
if i aint got you

whahahaha! (:
made a new album! take a look at it peeps! hahas.
anywae. todae had chinese enrichment. for the whole day! was wokay laas. hahas.
dezi didnt come! )): damn her. hahas.
anyway. first was the mask thingie. i reallie didnt do anything much! hahas. just took pics cos i took my dads cam to sch. hahas. and then was stoning and stuff. maybe i helped to cut the thingie. lols! then esther brought potato chips. and i ate in class! and teacher didnt even scold. but shes nt even a teacher in the sch what! hahas. so can bully! ((: whaha.
then we had to go to another class for chinese painting thingie. and we had to paint a ROOSTER. LOLS. its damn farnie. and the teacher who taught us how to pait it is like damn good la? veri nice. haha. and then the paint thingie is called dono was la. i called it soya sause. haha! and he claims that i used the most? lols! whatever la! :D
then we drew the thingie. we had 2 tries. the first one mine was like freaking big and farnie. didnt even look like a rooster? LOLS! then the second one the teacher drew for me. lols! then was damn lame. haha.
after that we went for recess! whahas. then we went back. went to ANOTHER class. and then this teacher teach us how to make chinese knots. and she claims that it wards away evil? smth like that. hahas. and then at one part i screamed la. then she said. why u scream? then i sae. cos the knot so nice. haha. then she called me up to demostrate with her again. wth? haha. but i still dono how to do. and regina broke my belt! =/ at least my maid sew for me alr! whaha. i lazeh to do la. haha.
ANYWAYS. after that thing we culd go home alr. it was like 1.20? damn early. haha. was soppose to go to plaza singapura with xiu. but then changed plans. went to mcs in tp with sobana, visha and priya. yupps.
was damn FUN. damn funnie also! whaha.
dammit. tml gt netball carnival at KALLANG. and i dono how to get there. lols. im gna get lost. SURELY. hahas. but probably gonna meet dezi and xiu and the others at tp first and go together. but must meet like freaking early. cos must be there at like 7.15 am? wth. and i live sooo damn far away.. sighness.
ahh wells. gonna eat dinner soon! whahas. gonna bring cam agn tml! take pics of the carnival! whee! :D
dinner time! BYE PPLE!

Sunday, October 24, 2004
let me slip away

went to orchard with my parents todae!
first we went to dono which hotel for this talk thingie on austraila properly. hahas. was boring la. but luckily i had my mp3 player with me! haha. so i listened to it! :D and after a while i also started to play hp game. haha. i played the dono which game la. and i beat the high score. hahas. lame. then after a while the talk ended!
they had coffee and tea and other stuff. so i used a cup. emptyed a whole bottle of honey. abt 10g? haha. and then put tea.. put 2 lemon. and it makes lemon tea. so lame! then i added another bottle! whahaha! and i nvr drink. i cannt be botheredd! MUAHAHA. IM SO EVIL! HEHEHE.
ok whatever. after the talk we went to eat. eat this thingie called nan? some indian prata thingie. haha. was wokay la. then we walked ard orchard abit.. went to plaza. haha! then we went home. hahas.
i just remb tml gt chinese enrichment. wth. i also dono what to bring.. and no one frm class is online. except xiu. and obiously she wont know cos shes SO blur. and regina also dono. hahas. sighhs. i think must bring dono what paintbrush? so lame. hahas. gna bring cam and take pics! whee! (:
hahahaha!!! so bored. heh.
parents are asking me to put more knowledge into my head and read more encyopidia books. -dies. might be kinof interesting la. but note pple. im NOT a nerd k? HEEHEE! :D
okay. lame. aye. now must do regina's blog. hahas. tkkaire! nite peeps! :D

Saturday, October 23, 2004
hope dangles on a string

chatting with dezi, xiu and mia now. and they are like flooding the damn convo.. hahas.
soppose to blog ystd after dinner. but i fell asleep after eating! hahas. was tired la i guess.
anyways. ystd we got back history, chinese and maths. HORRIBLE ): failed all. sighs. ))): history was the worst... i gt 33/100. but only 3 pple in our class passed! haha. math i got 47.5/100. dammit! i missed by 2.5 marks! dammit. ))): when i told my mum she like scolded me. haiz. then chinese. i gt 43/100. )): sigh. why cannt i just pass. im so stupid. HUR. ))): WHY! sighh.
damnit. anyways. ystd we also had the sex talk thing. damn lame la? haha.
shit. my dad wants to use the com. wtf? dammit la.
OKAY. my dad just said he maybe wants me to be a doctor? okay. lame. dammit.
tml i have no tui! yayness. haha. okay. super lame. sigh.
tml blog. nite peeps! :D

Thursday, October 21, 2004
i'm loving angels instead

MEL IS HAPPY! :D
I PASSED MY LIT!!!!! ((((: with good marks. wheee! im so happy. -rejoyces. hahas. my parents are happy with me too! hahas. whee. but i was like super nerovous the day before. so yeahhs. haha.
okay. think tml we will be checking history, chinese and maths. yups. =/ these are the subs that i usually fail? sigh. but chinese and maths at least i have SOME hope... PLEASE PASS. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE?! =/ HUR! ok whatever.
okay. today we had retreat. was okay laas. xiu cried alot. poor her. hope that shes feeling better. sighhs. then it was like for the whole day. haha. maria is a damn good dancer k! haha. she danced like 2 times. and shes damn good! xD
then our grps name was jaja bream?! lol. smth like that la. hahas. dezi, xiu and ele kept vandalising my leg and arm! haha. our grp had the higer score too! yayness. hahas.
then after the retreat we had the netball brifing thingie agn? its next tues. at kallang netball center. and the one thing that im gonna say is that i will surely get LOST! HAHAHA. im a idiot to this kinof thing i tell u. lols. probably gna meet dezi and xiu before going? maybeh! haha. ms teo jin ling was like drama mama can? she kept showing us moves. LOL. was damn farnie. hahas.
then me and xiu went to orchard... again. went to eat at kfc at taka. then we went to heeren hmv to listen to songs again! hahas. was kinof fun laas. hahas. then we went home. and on the way home i saw my idiot sis and her fren. haha! :D
sg idol rawked just now!! was damn nice! hahas. then watched the show after that. its nice! hahas. damn touching. sad story.. yet nice. the cat is cute. HAHA. lame. xD
think that i will end here. tml we are gonna have sex talk in sch. LOL. lameness. hahahaha.
NITE peeps! (:

Wednesday, October 20, 2004
a thousand miles

im feeling tired. bahhs. and my stomach hurts. i think gastric? dono. =/ aye.
got back sci, eng and dnt today. hmm. science i got 52/100. JUST pass. only 17 passes. so yeah. kinof lucky. was kinof shocked actually. hahas. but yeah. (:
then eng we got back letter and compre only. the other they said tml then give. sigh. gt 18/30 for letter. BAD. but at least pass. and compre i think i got.. erms. 23/40. yupps. also just pass. sigh. i hope my other compo can pull me up laas. sighs.
dnt is the WORST! haha. i got 17/50. but it was diff kay. and theres still the portfolio thingie and the workpiece. so i have confidence. sorta. =/ sighhs.
ahh wells. today was sorta boring. besides checking papers. we had this briefing on the games festival thing. hahas. and we were SOPPOSE to check chinese papers today but u noe wad? laoshi say TML. wth?!?! but nvm.. haha. then we stayed in class. talked alot. hahas. slacked ALOT in class. i even slept. lols. was sleepy. hurhur.
then after sch mrs how's grp in dnt had to go to the workshop to go edit the portfolio thing. so me and xiu went. but my grp didnt make changes.. so me and xiu went to orchard. haha.
first we went to grab a cookie! haha. then we went to paragon to check the surf shop for pencil box. lols. saw the crumpler shop! the bag is so freaking ex.. )): $89. OR $159. so ex. damn sad. but i like... hurhur.
then we went to heeren.. went to hmv. we checked out some cds. and listened to some songs. yup. then we went to level 2. then i think i saw slyvester and leandra. then i didnt know it was them and i just walked pass. cos i was looking for xiu. then after that i looked again and noticed it was them. haha. then i told xiu and we went downstairs. lol. she wanted to look at some movie cds so i followed her laas. haha.
then we went to another surf shop. looked at some stuff and xiu wanted to go alr. hahas. THEN ar. we saw erms. slyvester, leandra, taufic and christopher! haha. then me and xiu were thinking of a evil plan. haha. so we took out pen and paper and asked them to sign for us. haha. chris is quite cute la. haha. skyvester is damn thin! lols. then i talked to leadndra saying that her singing to good. lol. i told that to taufic toos! hahaha. ok.
then we went backk. took mrt. hahas.
sighs. think tml we are going to take neos. but i just remb that i have tui tml? SHIT. oh well. sighhs.
tml we surely checking chi. and i think math? lit? history? -dies. sigh. i must pass. hurr.
oh well. think that i will end here. :D

Tuesday, October 19, 2004
in my heart will always be a place for you
for all my life

:D
today was soppose to go to sentosa with dezi and xiu. but my parents didnt allow cos no adult person going. )): but nvm! cos it rained and there wasnt any sun. ((: haha.
they are like going there again on sat? wth. but we might be going again during the sch hols! and probably dezi's bro will take care of us! and i can go! yay. (:
okay. i love dezi and xiu so much!! hahas. my conners. whee! :D i miss them! ):
i like nvr go out for like 1 or 2 days alr. sian. stay at home and use the com.. watch tv. so boring! hahas.
i wanna go watch movie tml. hahas. maybe gonna go watch with dezi and xiu. see first. lols.
tml theres sch! hahas. think that we are like gonna get back our results. sighhs. damn scared for history. cos i know im gonna fail that. my history sucks dammit. hurhur. =/ math i hope i pass. my dad gt confidence in me. lols. chinese i wanna try i pass! hurhur. then eng MUST pass. lit MUST pass.. erms. sci i scared i fail. sigh. dnt SURELY fail.. so diff. haiz.
ayee. i think i will end here. tkkaire peeps! nite! :D

Saturday, October 16, 2004
im the one who
wants to be with you.
deep inside i hope you feel
it too.

boring day today.
woke up at 10. ate breakfast and used the com.
after that i ate lunch ard 12.30 and went to meet my mum at 2. she called and said she wuld only be at novena at 3. so i was like at novena at 1.30 laas. so i walked ard novena square and united square. lols. then met my mum. hahas.
then went for cath class. then went for mass.
today is such a boring day. hahaha.
MON AND TUES NO SCH! (: wheeeee. going out i think. havent plan yet. lollls.
oh yes! JERRY is finally out in sgidol. like FINALLY. duhhh. hes singing gt abit the prob. lolls. and he smiles too much! irriating. hehs.
bahhhs. i wanna cut my hairr! its so long. haha. tml i no tui! :D so happie. can relax. wheee.
gna do other stuff nw. NITE!

Friday, October 15, 2004
hold on
if you feel like letting go

EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER!!!
wheee! overrr! OVER! (: and im BACK! from abt 1 week! (: from my point of view, this has been the most stressful exam. i think. -shrugs. lols.
damn happie la. that its over. but once we get back our papers. -cries. DIE LA! =\ bahhs.
had MATH today. paper 1 was diff. paper 2 was okay. i culd do most of the ques. hahas. mrs how was like damn funnie! at the end she say only can talk when she put the papers in the packet. and she was taking her own sweet time!! hahas. but some other pple were still talking. lols! then when it FINALLY finished. everybody was like YAY! celebrating. lols.
i reallie reallie hope that i pass my math this time. reason being i did math ystd for abt 5 hrs+ ? think so. hahas. my dad tutored me toos! hahas.
mmm. mon we had lit and chinese paper 1. lit was OKAY i guess. chinese was er. -no comments. lols. the letter was ok. but the compo thing i didnt even know what the hell was i writing. totally crapping laas. bahhs.
tues we had sci and dnt. sci was OKAY i guess. hurr. studied alot. and dnt. SUCKED. my 2 hrs studying it toally WASTED. bahhs. at least i THINK i can try to get the marks for the drawing thing. but i anyhow drawed for the ortographic one. haha! cos i still dono how to do. it will be like a miricle if i actually get it right. lols.
wed we had history. HORRIBLE!!! must memorise all the notes. asoka. qinshihuang. and the stuff. bahhs. i dunt think that i can pass. but i HOPE that i can. sighhs.
thurs had CHINESE! for the first time i am actually saying that it was EASY! dad said cos i studied for it. which i did obiously! -grins. i hope i can pass. PLEASE PLEASE! -prays. hurr. okays.
i finally changed my layout!!! ((: but i cant insert the taggie. so i have to ask my sissy about it. but for the meantime go to the website that i made for it. lols. i think that this will be my temp layout for now. lols.
ohh yes! after math today went to tp with dezi. ate mos. then we saw sara, nic, lava, vann and ele. then we talked to them and went to tpe after that. then we went back to tpc and met sobana, visha, reshmi and peithing at mcs. we joined them! hahas. played truth or dare. was damn lame la. cos i never had a turn! lols. dezi had the most. and we asked her to ask the guy what time. lamee. haha.
then reshmi and visha went home. then dezi and peiting went to the lib. sobana and me also but we only went another way and was going to meet them there. but u noe wad? we didnt find them. and we walked ard like dono how many times! hahas. and sobana teached me many new tamil words! BAD WORDS! diff ones laas. was damn farnie. and we were like joking and all. lols.
after that we went home. hahas.
think that i will go and do other stuff. hahas. long entry today! lolss! tkkaire! (: niteee `
i want YOU back. and im sorry that i hurt you. sighs. i wish that you will just say YES. haiz. )):

Saturday, October 09, 2004
im overwhelmed with gratitude
cause baby im so thankful
i found you

HUR! i miss my darling! )):
okay. my dad is getting btr! yayy! but he is still giddy. the medicine that the doctor gave doesnt even do ANYTHING. bahhs. and my dad is so naughty k! even though he is sick he still ate abit of ice-cream. a bite of some fried thingie and a cookie! hahas. but hes much btr laas! (: and he has bed sore! sleep too much alr. hurhur.
tml i gt tui! BAHH! -dies. and i needa go do tui hw ltr. and call my darling. hee. (:
made cookies todayy! WHEEE! so damn nice. and i ate about 20 alr? xD
hmm. its aisha's bdae today! i know she wont see this. but. HAPPY BIRTHDAY AISHA! (: whahas.
oh yes! i read the dip in the poole stories that are going to be tested lotsa times alr! but im scareed i might just forget everything! hurr.
okay. i think that i will end here.
GOOD LUCK FOR EXAMS NEXT WEEK EVERYONE!!!
nite peeps. love my darling. (:

Friday, October 08, 2004
im not a perfect person
i never meant to do those things to you

haiz. im sad. damn sad. depressed wth.
im having probs now. WHY NOW?! damn fucking piece of bullshit. hurr. i hate friendship probs k. its the worst la. bahs. so many pple saying that they backstabb me. might be true. but i dono. bahhs.
act choc for recess today. shared with ele. hahas. was ok la. but i like the cornflakes one btr. xD we split moneyy! hahas.
today was a BAD day. i think horrible. terrible. the WORST yet? sighhs. WHY. why. whyyy.
sat with laavanya in class today. was ok laas.
i wish they can forgive me. but i dunt think they will. i can only try. and the rest is up to them. sigh. i feel like killing myself. but i wont. hur.
lit exam and chi paper 1 on mon. nt coming online ltr! gonna get a book thing to put ALL my notes. hahas. gonna study study study. and suprisingly i cannt wait?! lols. im going crazehh. whatever.
oh yes. i forgot. HAPPY BIRTHDAY IDAYU ; PEITING ; AISHA ! (:
idayu was ystd. peiting the day before. and aisha tml! hahas. so cool. lols. oh yes! poor idayu!! she lost her wallet. sighs.
i think i will go now. hahas. GOOD LUCK FOR YR FINAL YR EVERYONE ! esp my darling. hee.
gonna study now. BYE.

Thursday, October 07, 2004
you are the one
and i cant let you go

guess what everybody. I LOST MY VOICE! (: hahas. its kinof cool i guess! lols. everyone said that i sound like a guy. lols! and sobana is like calling me mr chan. lols.
oh yes! i finally got my specs! xD love it tonns. lols. and i can see everything so nice and clearr! hee. lame.
BAHS. tml theres art. and i havent even freaking drew the damn thing properly. its reallie damn frustrating u noe. its like.. i SUCK at art dammit. i dunt noe WHY my sis is soooo good. and i suck at it. bahhs. sad case. lols.
mmm. today sch was OK. dezi didnt come. lols. she claims that i passed her my sickness. -shrugs. all i had ystd was a frogs throat. or smth like that. bahahas.
ahhs. i wanna change my layout like SUPER badlyy. but i cannt find any nice ones! )): sadd. so someone is gna help me after the exams! (: whee. exams are gna start on mon. with LIT. whee. i love lit. hurr.
my poor dad is sick! =\ poor thing laas. since tues. and then ystd he was like vomiting and stuff. he went to the doctor but he isnt any better! )): bahhs. but its only giddy. bahs. hope he gets well soon! hurr.
regina is like sorta angry with me? i think so. dono las. its like shes angry sometimes and sometimes shes nt. wth. damn irriating laa. bahs.
damn scared for the exams! =\ sighhs. ariel cursed me.. damn her. bahh.
heh. i kinof LIKE my voice like that! lols. crazee me laas. whatever. hurr.
think i will end here. BYE PPLE! I LOVE MY DARLING! (((:

Tuesday, October 05, 2004
teach me how to fly
i will someday

BAHH. something is troubling me. DAMN bad la. and i need to know the TRUTH. who is lying and who is reallie telling the truth. but u noe wad. i cannt find out the truth. cos im nt allowed to. BAH. so i have to like figure it myself. somehow. hurr.
all my old posts got deleted! i think cos only can put a few posts la. dammit. i think i will delete like alot of my old posts laas. hurr.
school was ok i guess. damn tired. sat with regina. hahas. shes abit siao todae. lols!
d&t was like can die. had to do all the 10 ortographic drawings! did it in like 1 period+ hahas. damn diff. and i HATE it. ALOT. bah.
im like not allowed to use the com when my mum is home. she will like sae GO AND STUDY. hur. and the phone too! saddd. but i will be back. once the exams are over. which is like on the 15. hahas.
think that my specs might be ready today! hahas. but maybe not. ): im like BLIND in class. cannt see the board. hahas. so i have to like look and pples work and stuff. lol.
think that i btr end here. oh ya. and i gt the cough again. =\ DAMMIT.
GOOD LUCK FOR YR FINAL YR EVERYBODY!!! (:
love.

Sunday, October 03, 2004
i finally found the one
that makes me feel complete

guess what? i got a new mattress! LOL! but its nt gonna come until friday. lol. so i have to enjoy the rest of my old mattress for 5 days? yeahhs.
hmm. OH YES! i got new specs also. but it wont be ready until tues latest wed. haha. and i have shan guang. or whatever u call it. lol.
OKAY. i did like 2hrs of studying today of SCIENCE! -grins. i did the paper that mrs selvam gave us. hahas. its okay i guess? BAHH!
oh ya i forgot. eng exam is over alr! it was ok i guess. letter was ok. but the compo was like CRAP la. cos i didnt noe what to write. and all the compo ques was all NOT NICE! hahas.
hmm. on fri went to watch white chicks with regina, xiu, *ahem* and yao. lols. was damn funnie la the movie! lols.
hmm. ystd has chinese oral. the passage was like easier then p6 psle. wth. then asked the question thingie. lols. then we went to the lib for a while. then i went home. then went to novena to meet my mum and went for cath class. hahas.
im going to eat dinner soon! hahas. love my darling alot. (:

Saturday, October 02, 2004
I LOVE MY DARLING. (: